*bangs head against desk*

[mylittleredgirl]

How come any time I am faced with even the smallest, most manageable deadline I get the crushing feeling that I will amount to nothing in life and want to crawl off somewhere lonely and die rather than face the wee tiny not-death-deserving thing?

No wonder I was so damned miserable as a student.

Comments

[amilyn.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Love you.

[amilyn.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Love you.

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Thanks :)

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

*gasp* You wrote a Sarah/Pete story!?!??? Eeee! (and your other comments make SO much more sense now!) YAY!! How did I NOT know this? You must have just been tossing around a title and I missed what it was referring to in your posts about your writings.

There were songs in Charlotte's Web? I think I only read the book, but I take from this that it must have been made into a movie. Or... a musical.

*sends shepperd/weir and daniel/janet huggles*

*is ridiculously happy at that* Yay!

Chin Up...

[mysticalweather.livejournal.com]

Chin up, chin up
Everybody loves a happy face
Wear it, share it
It'll brighten up the darkest place
Twinkle, sparkle
Let a little sunshine in
You'll be on the right side
Looking at the bright side
Up with your chinny-chin-chin

Darn you Kate! Now I have that song stuck in my head! Hehe...it's sad that I still know the words...haven't seen that cartoon in forever.

Though me and my sister always seem to be quoting the "T, double E, double R, double I, double F, double I, double C C C." (Which for all of you who are confused, is how the goose told Charlotte to spell "terrific".

~Misty

[besyd.livejournal.com]

{{{Hugs!}}}

[lisayaeger.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You've already amounted to quite a bit :-D

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Aww, thank you :)

I think the frustrating thing is that the "amount to something in life" is part of the problem. Well, I want to amount to be a good mother someday, so must acquire job skills to bring me living wage of moneys. And that requires learning to deal with deadlines without curling up under my bed.

I have put my bed on the floor -- that should help. :)

*loves you*

[lisayaeger.livejournal.com]

*loves you*

Sleep well :-)

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

*is comforted* For we have had massively geeky comment!spam all day, and that proves that you are COOL despite also being crap with deadlines. Yay!!

The thing is -- even when deadlines are, like, a month off, and I have WAY more time, I get all freaked out about them. There must be some cool meditation-y, baby-steps-y coping strategy I can work on. Will look :)

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

OMG. LOVE. ICON. *dies*

I think I'm with you. But I'm realizing that this has gotten a bit out of control since I got sick, mostly because I'm aware that I can't trust my body to be able to pull an all-nighter or my brain to pull something out at the last minute... and whenever I have tried to force myself to in the past few years I get *REALLY* sick for months and months. So. Huh. I suppose the psychology isn't really that complicated after all. DUH.

However, when I start getting panicky about not having Christmas presents for my parents wrapped on time or getting to bed on time or, like, getting to the post office (and not actually GOING), I think I might need to rearrange my brain a little ;)

Whatever. Thus concludes the "LJ as cheap therapy" portion of the evening.

Squeeeeee!! Our form of procrastination IS productive, because it brings joy to others!

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Your sister's mind is not a subtle place.

And I'm totally stealing the icon for future use (or just to have and look at!) for it is so happymaking. Trip SHOULD be Captain!! He's an AWESOME Captain!

*hugs you*

[aj.livejournal.com]

You should become a... um. Yoga instructor?

Re: *hugs you*

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

I should become a MOMMY!!

But, um, need to have a way to make a living wage first (and, liek, a husband). Bother. I'd love to go into therapeutic massage -- and have wanted to since like age 10 -- but I don't think I'm physically up to it. Sooooo... yoga! And... um... run a knitting store? Or or or teach swimming more! Or... um... join an ashram! yes, must figure out how to deal with deadlines if I want to make money. And I like money. So damn.

*heaves great sigh*

I am a bit worried I'm setting myself up to CRASH AND BURN looking for full-time, deadline-heavy, fast-paced-intense job while still not quite better. Hrm. Well, maybe they won't hire me and I'll come up with some other way to fund my health insurance.

We can hope?

[aj.livejournal.com]

See, this is what me and Lisa have been saying. Geek girl commune. I think it would totally work for a few years before imploding. But we'd totally need a sugar mama or daddy to get it off the ground.

I'd totally run away to join a cult group like that. Especially if I got to organize videos all day. I'd die a happy, happy, nearly blind woman.

Re: We can hope?

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

You are the ONLY person who will ever be allowed to see my spreadsheet cataloguing every episode I have on tape or DVD and where it is, oh yes, and the ones I am missing, because I swear to God I'm really not OCD and if you don't see it you have NO PROOF.

Which Lisa? Not lisayaeger...? Because I'm not sure I see her as the geek girl commune type, but I could be wrong about that. But we should invite her, because she has the most amazing TV EVAR.

*has moment of omfg my icon is so perfect*

No...

[aj.livejournal.com]

First online fandom friend Lisa. And eee!! amilyn does that with her tapes and dvd's too! I tried, but got bored. I need someone to help me catalog everything. Tried the same thing with my comics but had to add in creative teams (yay, complications!) and didn't have a decent enough grasp on report-making so that I could get it to look nice enough and do what I wanted so petered out after 400. Bah.

ONE DAY!!!

Re: No...

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

No way! Yay for Amy!! *is not alone*

I actually did it is a corollary to my "OMG I MUST GET RID OF EVERYTHING I DO NOT NEED" phase that I go through every few months. But I can't get rid of episodes I still don't have on DVD! And, like, the X-Files will cost me more than my FIRST CAR, so, yes, now I have a linen closet full of two hundred VHS tapes.

[cleverocity.livejournal.com]

hugs hugs hugs!

[cleverocity.livejournal.com]

hugs hugs hugs!

[cleverocity.livejournal.com]

Er, yes. Double infinihugs.

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

INFINITY PLUS INFINITY IS INFINITY!!!!

[splash-the-cat.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

*is hugged*

[malinne.livejournal.com]

Hey...you are not allowed to talk that way about yourself. Stop it! We all know that you have made something of yourself. What's a little performance anxiety? *hugs*

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

:) Yay!!

I'm not sure *what* I have amounted to at this point -- I'm sort of just heading into the phase of "amounting to something" since I'm 22 and illnessed myself out of college and my SAT scores really no longer count as a lifetime achievement... but I suppose "fairly decent human being" counts for something? Oooh! And I can knit sweaters.

Oh well. Now that the moment has passed I can think of this as a challenge and hopefully come up with some sort of PLAN to try and deal with the deadline-freaky-out-ness.

[rosewildeirish.livejournal.com]

*pets* You will do just fine, and finish with plenty of time.

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Thanks for indulging my random LJ-whining :)

I didn't finish in time, but since I am working for MY FATHER's company and English is actually my native language (it isn't his), he is very impressed with what I've written and thinks I am speshul.

The deadline-freaky-out thing in a larger sense is something I will have to work on, I suspect, but for the moment I am out of the line of fire. *whew*

[rosewildeirish.livejournal.com]

Yay! And probably handled it a bit better this time than previous. Baby steps...improve one moment at one time. Or at least work at it.

That's what I try to do. And if I don't manage it? There's always next time.

[pellmelody.livejournal.com]

But you are loved. That must count for something. *hugs*

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

It counts for LOTS!! *is loved and very happy and rather awed*

[sombras-azules.livejournal.com]

Dude, you're not alone! I'm the same way. No deadlines? No problem! Deadline? PISS CASCADING DOWN MY PANTS!

That's encouraging for two writers, huh?

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

It really isn't. *tragic sigh*

... I wonder if that's why you and I ended up with the most notoriously unfinished WiPs in DRR-land?

*clings to you*

We should run away somewhere and CHANGE OUR NAMES.

[dingc.livejournal.com]

I suppose I have the opposite problem. Deadlines mean nothing to me. Hell, I didn't even study for one final this semester. Best advice I can give you is, to relax (but not like me = you don't do anything) and do your best! We're cheering for you!