so, today.

[mylittleredgirl]

Selfishness and whininess warnings apply to this.

My great-aunt is getting moved to a nursing home under great drama and kafuffle, so my mother had to go to Toronto this morning. There's a very good chance she won't be back until after Christmas. My dad is going to spend the week of Christmas staying at Kripalu.

My family Christmas has been cancelled, and I will be all by myself at home the week of Christmas.

So... I'm disappointed. I made a very bit point of not only not making a scene but being very happy and accomodating and encouraging of all this, because the last thing my mother needs is to feel pulled in yet another direction and I'm too old to ruin my dad's plans just because I want attention. But Christmas Eve is my favourite family night of the year -- we have all these lights and candles, and go to church together sometimes, and bake cookies and watch the Muppet Christmas Carol and huddle around the piano singing christmas carols like we live on a greeting card. I also hate being home alone at night on *regular* days.

So I'm disappointed. I haven't yet figured out how to make the best of this. I realize it's not that big of a deal -- and while I really really hate being told "buck up! it could be worse!", you should feel free to think that in your head. It's just... it's Christmas! It's only once a year, and I was looking forward to it, so it's a drag. I'm using the "this is my journal and I am WHINING in it" perogative.

But there is always gleee.

5 good things about today:

1. Watched good DS9 episodes with Gira ("Accession" and "Shattered Mirror", for nenya_kanadka who will wonder).

2. Ran into Bina over at Kripalu, and she told me that she likes DS9 better than Voyager now. I feel evil and victorious. We also made tentative plans to watch Voyager eps that I've missed during Christmas week.

3. Got email from Anjani with request to hang out -- yay! I will get gossip on her new job plans.

4. Was in one room with mystic_isles000, rpgmaniac666 and alosersdream, and the universe did not implode from our Kripalu-Kid-iness.

5. Evening with Dad at Country Buffet and Barnes & Noble.

3 things I did well:

1. Agreed to work at 7 a.m. on Christmas Eve as favor to Sara, and made plans to get trained for that tomorrow.

2. Did some Christmas shopping.

3. Worked a bit on a fic that had been WiP-y for a while... I *can* pick up things I've put down before!

-- Little Red, who is also still happy about her cute little tree, and thinks I should try and get a star for it.

Comments

[keenween.livejournal.com]

dude, it's not your family, but I'm sure you could come hang out and be a part of my family's christmas if you'd like!

[redbeard.livejournal.com]

Yay! Come to Baltimore! Come to Baltimore!

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Dude, you rock my world. Thank you so much for this offer -- and for the card that I just got today! :)

Unfortunately, I had already agreed to work on the morning of Christmas Eve before I knew about my family's change of plans and can't now get out of the shift. I think I'll arrange to just postpone the family Christmas rather than cancel it all together, but I feel much much better about life after getting offers of adoption from my friends.

[qwirky.livejournal.com]

*snuggles you* =( Wee little trees are kewt! Get a star! <3<3<3 *smushes*

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

I couldn't find one!! *teh tragic* But my wee tree is still cute. I tied a knot of sparkly garland stuff and stuck it on top instead ;)

[suzvoy.livejournal.com]

*snuggles*

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

aww, thanks. *snuggles back*

[lytarules.livejournal.com]

*wishes she wasn't so far away, for you would be most welcome here*

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Awwww!! *hugs you* You're too sweet! I'm sure the Lyta Family Christmas is delightful :)

Oh no! My Lyta icon got lost in the reshuffling some how. Er... have Talia?

[katyjo.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry your Christmas won't be what you imagined - I know I'd be considerably sulkier and miserable in your position!

But I'll be thinking of you over here in Wales this Christmas, and wishing you much glee.

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Aww, yay! I'm sure there will be gleee. I'm starting a campaign to *postpone* Christmas instead of cancelling it, and I'm working on getting myself adopted into someone else's family for Christmas Eve :) (which is more important than Christmas itself in my head, anyway)

[sombras-azules.livejournal.com]

::christmas hugs::

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

Thanks!!

[splash-the-cat.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Thanks! *hugs back and sends love*

[miekec]

Boston is not too far, I think.... we also have candles, cookies, a piano (well, organ actually) and good company. And a place to crash after. If you would like, you can join us. Not quite your own family, but there'll be 2 Kappa-siblings, a baby a cat and a kitten. And probably a grumpy old next-door-neighbor's dad as well. See, all bases covered :)

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Kitten!

That such a sweet offer! Thank you!! I think I'm managing to get myself adopted somewhere for Christmas Eve that's closer to home... but I feel all warm and fuzzy and kappa-foth-loved now :)

[rosewildeirish.livejournal.com]

That does suck. But Christmas can be celebrated any time. What if, either before or after your dad leaves, you have a family celebration? It might have to be scaled back and maybe not everyone, but an attempt at a togetherness?

I've had to work on Christmas Day, though, so I know how that can be. The jobs I've had over the years have covered all 365 of the calendar, so I learned to try to make the time special, whenever you can grab it. It's not quite the same, but it can be a useful thing to have.

Plus, next year will be even more special. Promise.

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

See, that's a brilliant idea. I've put forth the reccomendation to wait until my mom and dad both return and then to stage a Christmas Eve.

Thanks so much for the advice and encouragement :)

[wiliqueen.livejournal.com]

{{{{{ hugs }}}}}

I know it wouldn't be the same, but wish I could kidnap you!

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Kidnapping is fun!! :)

[liminalliz.livejournal.com]

*clings* You can come stay with meeeee! Texan Christmas! It's like...New England in July!!! <333

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Oooooh! Liz! And warmth!

Er... random question of the day: do you wear rings ever? (as in, regular rings, not Rings Of Special Significance. I heart you very muchly in a platonic way, no worries.)

[liminalliz.livejournal.com]

Hee hee! And herbal teas and chocolate?

Raaaaaaaandom! Yup. I used to wear them all the time but then I lost them (cuz I SUCK) and my high school ring, as pretteh as it is, is, um, ya know, a high school ring. (...but wait, I thought we got lj-married...?)

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Oh, shit, did we? Was that when we were in lj-vegas and I was very drunk? ;)

Should we make it official (http://www.livejournal.com/community/marry_a_ljuser/)? Personally I vote for living in livejournal sin. Perhaps we should make a community for that.

I still have my high school ring somewheres, too. It has a soccer ball on it, because we ordered them in grade 10 and we didn't yet have a swim team (which is, you know, where I actually made my small-town highschoolsports fame). *head/desk* I used to wear a ring on every finger because I adore them so, and then got told by someone that that was Not A Very Grown Up Thing To Do. All my rings fall off now anyway since I lost weight, and I'm trying to pretend this isn't just a big excuse to go buy new rings ;)

[liminalliz.livejournal.com]

We should totally lj-cohabit (can there be legal girl/girl marriages over LJ? :is totally excited about the new wave of the radical LJ future!!:)

Ahhh. Rings. :looks longingly at ROTK:EE and thinks of all the slashy icons to make!! SQUEEE!:

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

radical LJ wave!!!

I'd say "You know, I never actually saw Return of the King", but I think I enjoy being married to you, so I won't say it ;)

[liminalliz.livejournal.com]

And you haven't seen the Matrix either, have you? :is more amused than "OMFG! :GLARESATYOU!!!::

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Hee. Well, I kinda did, but not really, because it was being projected on a screen outside during frosh week and there wasn't really any sound, and there may have been wrestling with other audience members.

I did see the first two LotR movies in theatres (Two Towers at the midnight showing because I was shanghaied by friends -- do I get points for that?) I also only saw the first Harry Potter movie. And I never saw Titanic, though I understand that the ship sinks.

Consider my media retardation an endearing quirk?

[liminalliz.livejournal.com]

Hey, lady, 2 out of my three zillion fandoms? I still love you forever. :)

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

If we are to be married, it's better if we don't share ALL our interests :)

[liminalliz.livejournal.com]

Otherwise, we'd get bored and have little to go "Hey, you should look at THIS, you might like it!" or "okay, naptime for me, you go watch...whatever that thing is." Etc. :cuddles:

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Aww, yay!!

And then we can get together and squeee madly in the face of, like, Sheppard/Weir and other squeee. Omfg. *dies of squeee*

I had fun S/W dreams last night!! It was fun! Liz was all "ARGH!" because John was being all John and got them into major international diplomatic troubles, and then he was all "sulk" and she was all "damn. But I still want to kill you." And then I think there was make-up sex, but that part got sadly fuzzy because I couldn't decide who deserved to top whom.

I have, like, things to do... *procrastinates*... hey, if I just joined an automated Atlantis fic archive, like wraithbait (http://www.wraithbait.com) or atlantica (http://sg-atlantis.org/fanfics/index.php), is it rude to spam them my entire body of 'lantis work at once?

[liminalliz.livejournal.com]

Oh yes. So much Shep/Liz squeeing that there won't be enough squee in the world to make up for it...or something like that. WHEEEHEEEE.

I LOVE having fandom dreams. WORD. *DIES at the description of your dream* YAY!

It's NOT rude to spam with awesome fic like yours. SO DO EEEET!!!

[lifelongfling.livejournal.com]

There's always Michigan for Christmas......

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Awww! *wishes* 'tis probably very pretty there :) And Meijer for last minute shoppings! ;)

Sadly, I have agreed to work a THREE HOUR EARLY MORNING SHIFT on Christmas Eve. *growls at work* So clearly I must stay and earn my twenty-six dollars and not go to Michigan.

[daisycm83.livejournal.com]

Awe, sweetie. Whine away. That's all icky. *hugs* Sorry to hear.

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the whine enabling :) I need that sometimes! *feels entitled*

It's icky, but I think that if we manage to postpone xmas it'll be best for everyone. I'm sure it's suckier for my mom being away from home than it is for me being here alone.

Plus, I'm lucky and have sort of extended-immediate-family from the ashram days, so I can perhaps appeal to be adopted by pseudo-parents for Christmas Eve.

[moonshayde.livejournal.com]

Oh dear. I am so sorry. Can you maybe postpone Christmas? I know it's not exactly the same, but maybe it's start.

I'd invite you our to share with us, but I don't know you very well yet, and I'd like to not freak people out. I wish you the very best, though.

[mylittleredgirl.livejournal.com]

Postponing is a good idea -- I think it's the one I'm going with. Gives me more time to finish the afghan I'm knitting for my parents anyway! *tries to think positive*

I'd invite you our to share with us, but I don't know you very well yet, and I'd like to not freak people out.

Hahahaha, don't worry. Most of the people who invited me to come stay with them in this list of comments know me very well in a real-life sense :) And the others... are just weird and like adopting internet orphans?

[sekilara.livejournal.com]

I feel your pain! I have to work on Christmas Eve and Christmas, and there will be no family. :( There's always next year, I suppose!